My Worship Corner

by Camilla DeFaria

Today’s Youtube Playlist

Some days worship is costly. The heart feels so heavy it pulls all the
way down into the hands. And yet, those are the days I feel most drawn
to Him. Like the deer pants for the water (Psalm 42:1), I understand that
desperate thirst. I feel parched. Emptied. But still, I come.

He doesn’t turn me away. Whether I arrive full of energy or barely
holding myself together, He receives me. He cares for me, tends to my
wounds, and meets me right where I am. Not all grief is from loss. Not all
pain is bad. Not all hurt is for destruction. Sometimes it is the grief, the
pain, and the hurt that cause us to dig deeper, into places we might not
have wanted to go. But we must go there in order to ask the hard
questions, face hard truths, and look deep into the mirror of our soul to
see what is truly missing. Where is the pain really coming from, not the
superficial reason, but what is the root of the pain? And there, in the
thick of it, we receive from the Lord the real answer and solution. Not a
superficial fix, but the root of the problem addressed for complete
healing.

Sometimes the grief is over something I never had. Sometimes it’s the
ache of longing. Longing for connection, for community, for belonging.
And the good news is He is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18).

“When they cast
you down, you shall
say, ‘There is a
lifting up.’ And the
humble person He
will save.”

Job 22:29

The cares of this world become so small

When we come before You and You show us Your all

Then the sweet aroma of Your presence fills this place

Ah, to live here in Your loving embrace

Thank You, my God, for Your complete and transforming grace

Today in worship, I arrived needing healing. I didn’t sing with my voice. I
prayed the words being sung with my spirit. A heavy heart was my
offering. Those songs bore my cry. And then He shifted something. He
lifted me. He changed my garments of sorrow for garments of joy
(Psalm 30:11). So the playlist is a bit longer, I needed a double portin
today.

I came to the altar with what little I had, and He received it. He poured
out oil on every cracked and tired place (Isaiah 61:3). My cup overflows
(Psalm 23:5). He is the God who lifts, the God who transforms, the God
who never leaves (Hebrews 13:5).

Thank You, Father, for meeting me in the quiet, heavy places. Thank You for not turning me away. Thank You, Holy Spirit, for Your sweet, still small voice that guides and comforts me. For exchanging
sorrow for joy. For healing what I didn’t even know was broken. You are good, and You are near, and that is enough for today.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.